It’s started–the mommy guilt. I’ve gotten it. There are just so many things to do and not enough time to do them all how I’d like to.

Right now I’m trying to finish crocheting Britton’s blanket for his blessing, and it’s taking forever (I didn’t know what I was doing and picked a really easy, but time consuming pattern) and I’m trying to get things going on a new business, and take care of Brit at the same time…and they all have to be done at once.

Here’s where the guilt comes in. I’m trying to do these other things that are important and that I have to do, but then I feel like I’m doing enough with Brit. He could be sitting there happy with his toys, or just looking around, but I feel like I should be reading or singing to him or playing with him. Somehow doing all of the things the books tell you to do to stimulate a baby’s brain and development. Don’t get me wrong, I do play with him, and I take care of him when needs or wants something, but at the end of the day when I put him down to sleep I can’t help but thinking it isn’t enough. I’m sure I’ll feel this way for the rest of my life now, but it’s a new feeling that I’m not sure I like.

But, then there are the times that are so great and I am loving being a mom. Like, on Mother’s Day when Britton gave me a great gift–he only woke up once during the night, and slept in till 8! It was great. Mark was great too. He made me breakfast and insisted on doing all of the cooking and cleaning all day! He hates doing dishes, and we don’t have a washer, so this was a big deal. He “got” me a gift I really need/will enjoy too–a massage at the place of my choice. (I’ve been to a couple of places around, so he figured I could choose which one I wanted to go to.) It was a really nice an relaxing day. Thanks Mark for everything! Love you!

Britton is just getting bigger and is a lot of fun. He smiles and laughs all the time, and we really enjoy having him. He’s still really cute, and does cute things, but we haven’t gotten the camera out as often this past week, but, here are a couple of good ones.